I knew I had to come here, and now I have been here for almost 3 months. Where did all those days go? 3 months is so short. It has gone by so fast that I did not realise until today that I only have 2 weeks left here. As usual, I need to start preparing myself to leave now since it takes a while for me to process everything (to the extent that 2 weeks is almost too short of a time!)
I left Sweden in September last year knowing that I wanted to explore parts of the world and different needs of children. I also knew that I wanted to give of myself and at the same time develop my art but also look for new business opportunities so that I could find a way to get one step closer to my dream in building schools and orphanages. And you know, I never thought about looking for something else apart from that – I remember that upon leaving Nepal, I told you that I had found so much more than I even knew I was looking for or needed. The same applies to Costa Rica and while I want to say that “I guess that is the way it always will be while travelling to new places”, I do not want to draw any conclusions about any future travels or new experiences just yet. But while travelling solo, you meet so many people from all around the world, usually sharing some kind of passion or interest of your own and that your paths cross puts me in awe of how the universe works – every single time. I realise, that the more open you are, the more you will learn. As I write that it may seem like an obvious point being made but I believe that we need to understand that learning to learn is an experience in itself. We never know anything and certainly not everything which is why we should appreciate the gift of learning. I will remember to embrace the intelligence, creativity, curiosity and any willingness to be perceptive to new ideas or thoughts surrounding me.
Considering the act of learning to learn, I think about the children whom I have met here in Costa Rica. I ask myself, will they feel disappointed that I am leaving? 3 months in their lives is not a very long time and while I know that my experience here has been priceless – will I just be one of those people who came and left in their lives? Sometimes we talk about time being everything – time heals, give it time to grow, the time is not right and so on. This makes me ask myself, why not stay longer if time is an anchoring factor to healing, learning and even trust? Then again, is it? In some ways I believe it is but there are no rules without exceptions. Depending on who you are, what you want, what you see and what you learn – will be what you teach. The way you teach and what you share will make an impact and time will not have the power to decide the place you have received in a person’s heart or memory.
Maya Angelou once said something beautiful:
“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”
I would like to finish this post by saying that I agree with Maya Angelou and it is not a way to “justify” my earlier departure from Costa Rica. However, while I ponder over the time I have had with the children and that I will be leaving, I am hoping that they will not forget how I maybe made them feel. I never forget how people made or make me feel (in good and less pleasant ways) and those are the ones I will always remember because they taught me something important.